THIRTYTONORMAL

Day 5 of 21 day challenge

Things were a bit more challenging today.  Not sure why.  Yesterday I wasn’t hungry at all, all day long, and so I thought (silly me) that I was over the tough part.  Today, not so much.  I was hungry, with actual hunger, maybe because I didn’t eat a lot yesterday.  Plus I was having a lot of fleeting thoughts of ice cream, cupcakes, chocolate muffins, all sorts of yummy things.  Nothing that I felt the slightest bit compelled to act on, but I would rather those things not occupy a single iota of space in my consciousness.

For Karen, the reason it’s no beans (and it’s no beans only for the challenge) is because they are high in carbs (particularly if you are using them as a protein source).  They acknowledge that the fiber content is high, but maintain you can get that fiber content from vegetable sources without incurring the high carbs.  For myself, I’m not a big fan … when I have eaten them they are a food that leaves me hungry again in a short time.  I think it’s one of those foods that if it works for you, then go for it.

I did have some peanuts today before remembering that they are indeed a legume and not a nut …  I don’t normally eat them but was looking for something quick and easy to eat as a snack.  I don’t like any of the nuts, although almonds are okay if they’re covered in chocolate.  :)

Dinner tonight is roasted vegetables (squash, onions, and green beans) along with Alaskan cod that Mac caught last week.   The cod will go on the Foreman grill with just some seasoning.

Oh, and the cauliflower (faux potato) salad was actually pretty good.  I had tasted it when I’d just mixed it together and it was okay, but after 3 hours of refrigeration it was really good.  Definitely on the “must make again” list.

I’m also trying to remember to drink my 8 oz of water before eating.  Seems like such a simple thing, but I’m finding it hard to remember until we’re sitting down to eat.

the candy dilemma

since Karen brought it up I decided I’ll put in my two cents worth.  So much of what she says is true.  I went through everything she did, from buying “good” candy to buying “wouldn’t eat that if I were starving” candy.  Hiding it.  Giving it away.  I wrote here and  here about my struggles last year with tootsie rolls.  Mac loves giving out candy on Halloween so we aren’t going down the “no candy here” route.

I did decide to do something different this year.  Normally I buy those huge packs which only contained one thing I liked … the dreaded tootsie rolls.  The good thing about this is that 90% of the candy was stuff I didn’t eat.  The bad, of course, was that I would take out every.single.tootsie.roll and save it for me to eat.  The other bad thing about those huge bags of candy is that there is usually stuff left over and it is WAY too easy to grab one little piece of candy and think that it is okay because it is just one little piece of candy.  Of course in my world that one little piece of candy ALWAYS leads to another and another and another until I’m stuffing them into my mouth so fast that I don’t even have time to eat one piece before another is shoved in.

So this year I bought full-size candy bars of a type I don’t normally eat.  (I had to put a qualifying adverb in there because when it comes to Halloween candy we all know that all bets are OFF.)  My thinking on getting the full size bars is that first of all I know exactly how many I bought.  So no kidding lying to myself about how many I’ve eaten.  Secondly it takes a lot more justification on my part to eat a full-size bar rather than an itsy, bitsy, so-small-it-shouldn’t-even-count piece of candy.  Thirdly Mac is ALWAYS concerned that we won’t have enough candy.  So he buys more and more.  And then gives out huge handfuls to each kid leading to it looking like we ARE going to run out of candy (horror of horrors!) so that he writes himself a note to make sure he buys even more candy the following year.

I also stockpiled McDonald’s toys this year (none of my gks like the toys but they all like the meals so I keep the toys) and will give those out to any littlies who not only don’t need a big a candy bar but don’t need candy at all.

And finally we will know EXACTLY how many trick-or-treaters show up.  (See above note about Mac writing himself a note … when you are both engineer-types you tend to be a little lot geeky about numbers.)

a new plan (that’s really the old plan)

One of the problems with overeating (outside, of course, of the point that you are overeating) is that once the food is eaten the discussion is over.

Unlike exercise.  With exercise you can give yourself all the excuses in the world for not doing it, but until the day is over you still have the opportunity to get it done.

I think it was RS who used to say “a moment on the lips, forever on the hips”.  While it may not be forever, it’s still not something you can take back.

So many times with the exercise thing, I’m already starting the exercise while I’m still telling myself I don’t have to do it.  Unfortunately that happens with the overeating too.  The food is already in my mouth while I’m still telling myself I don’t really want it.

I need to come up with ways to slow that process down.  To give myself more time between the “I want” and the “I ate”.

Not having the temptation is the house is a great idea, except that I can overeat cheese, nuts and fruit, just as easily as cookies and cake.  I’m thinking I’ll start imposing a “can’t have it until I’ve drunk 16 oz of water” plan.

I need to make sure I’m eating enough lean protein and make sure I get in my vegetables.  I also need to start paying attention to my triggers, like boredom (my #1 trigger).  I had an insanely wonderful busy summer and while I like that things have calmed down it also leaves me more time to think about food.  And I need to rethink the fruits and grains, as much as I love them.  I’ve just been having a sandwich thin once a day, but it may be too much for me.  It’s almost the end of the season for getting good fresh fruit up here, so that will take care of itself.

I’m going to re-read my posts again also to reinforce what I know is true for me and my weight loss. I need to embrace my body’s needs rather than try to find a way to work around them.