THIRTYTONORMAL

Zen Zone

It seems like I’ve been back firmly on track for much longer than week, but this latest go-around just started six days ago.

And I’m still in the zen zone.

I wavered a bit yesterday.  Kid drama which happens even when said kids are all adults.  They’ll figure it out, but seriously I would be happy to step in and tell them what to do.  But I won’t.  We each have to walk our own path and while I think the path they are contemplating isn’t such a great idea they obviously think differently.  And if there’s one thing I’ve definitely learned it’s that sometimes what seems to be the wrong path turns out to be the best path in the end.  So we each need to choose for ourselves because we’re the ones that have to live that choice.  (nothing of a crisis level, just a kid not dealing with things at work the way I think they should … I’m afraid they’ll get fired and they don’t care at this point because of all the crap that’s gone on.)

But in the end I sat down with a cup of herbal tea and re-read the primal blueprint 21 day challenge and was totally back in the zone again.

Now if I could just get my subconscious to let it go and quit waking up in the middle of the night and worrying about things.  I’m just fortunate that I fall right back to sleep again once I convince myself that, once again, it’s out of my hands.

Made turkey with roasted potatoes and onions yesterday.  Debated about having some of the potatoes … they are a seldom or never choice unless you are a heavy exerciser (which I am not).  In the end, I decided to have a couple of bites.  They were good, but I realized I would have been just as happy with roasted cauliflower.  Next time I’ll do the potatoes for Mac and the cauliflower for me.  I’m glad I had them because I think I would have thought they were better than they were if I hadn’t.

We finally are warming up here … at least the temperature is above zero.  It’s still icy out … kids were skating on our cul de sac yesterday.  It looked pretty uneven to me, but then I like to skate on a smooth surface that’s been groomed by a Zamboni.

 

That Place

Three days in (today is the 4th day) and I’m in that place … the zen of weight loss.

That place where you actually forget to eat.

That place where you could bake some chocolate chip cookies (hi, Carla) and not even want to eat any.

That place where you feel a peace and calmness about everything … regardless of the challenges that are present.

That place where the number of choices for on-plan meals seems endless.

That place where some raw cauliflower for a snack is a want to not a have to.

That place where you feel like you could do this forever.

That place that you never want to leave.

But I know all so well that life is fleeting and staying in that place isn’t always going to be this easy.

So I need to remember how this feels, what it means, and most importantly that this is where I always want to be.

It’s a good day

If you’re a polar bear.  Unfortunately I’m not. So I’m hanging out trying to keep warm when it’s -40 with the windchill.  Seriously people nobody should be out in this weather.

Eating has been spot-on.  Fresh cabbage with homemade dressing and left-over roast for breakfast.  Scrambled eggs with bacon for lunch. Large salad with lots of vegetables with more beef for dinner.  (because when you don’t go to the grocery store you’re left with what’s in the refrigerator.

Best of all, no sugar or grains and no need to white-knuckle resisting them because I’m not interested.

Which once again is fairly interesting (at least to me) that one day I’m thinking I really really need a cookie, plus thinking that it would be totally okay if I ate a cookie (or two), to the thought of cookies not even crossing my  mind.  Not to mention that I have said cookies sitting in the freezer and they still aren’t calling my name.

It’s nice, but weird.  Like there’s some switch inside of me that goes on and off at random moments and I appear to have limited control over it.

That doesn’t mean I can’t do something when the cookie switch is on … I can and will say no.  I just hope that it continues to be off more than it’s on.